Scott Bradford: Off on a Tangent

In the spring of 2001, I become involved in an on-again off-again relationship with a girl I had met the summer before. That relationship, while ultimately short, spawned the most prolific, confident, and profound period of poetic expression in my life to-date. ‘Under the Streetlight’ moves from adoration to frustration to anger to repentance and finally to closure.

The End of the Beginning

Posted August 22, 2003 2:43pm ET

It’s not an issue of who’s right anymore
We’ve done what we did and it’s over now
Right or wrong, the world has changed again
Redrawing what lines must be redrawn
And history will judge what’s been good and bad
And history will decide if we were justified
And history might not agree with what any of us say
From the cold comfort of this song today

But if I have to believe in anything
I might as well believe that I
Am a good person
And if I have to believe in anything
I might as well think I was right
And so what if I’m wrong
It’s for history to judge

And I think I know
I think I know it all meant something
You’ve proved to me
That everything was real
I never asked for anything but
Honesty from you

It’s a matter of faith
You’ve got to have faith
Never lose faith

That everything works out

In the end…

Stupid Match

Posted August 22, 2003 2:42pm ET

All my heart, all my soul
All I would really like to know
Did any of this mean anything
To you?

But I’d rather not know
If you’re going to play the game
So cold, so nonchalant
I’d just rather not know

Tonight the thunder crashes
Like those nights so long ago
New Carrollton reminds me that…

Phil, your stupid match
Ain’t no match for a
Summertime storm

I could drag it out
But it’s been done some times before

Newsflash Girl

Posted August 22, 2003 2:40pm ET

I never asked for you
Waltzing back into my life
But here you are all changed and rearranged
But what the hell world are you living in
Where I owe you anything?

You’re damn lucky I even wrote you back
And you act all high and mighty
Well newsflash, girl
I was always good to you
And if I’m going to say I’m sorry
I’m going to say I’m sorry
I ever loved you

So you were mad at me, huh?
Mad at me for moving on?
So I tired of playing all your little games
And what the hell kind of world is it
Where I bear one damn bit
Of all the blame?

You’re damn lucky I even wrote you back
And you act all high and mighty
Well newsflash, girl
I was always good to you
And if I’m going to say I’m sorry
I’m going to say I’m sorry
I ever loved you

And so I loved you
And so I cared
So I adored you
And so you lied, and all but
Forced me out the door
I won’t let you
Blame me anymore

I was always good to you
And if I’m going to say I’m sorry
I’m going to say I’m sorry
I ever loved you

The Beginning of the End

Posted August 22, 2003 2:40pm ET

These ghosts fade back into color
Out of nowhere, they call out this old name
There’s no good reason at all I should answer
But I want to, just the same

If just to know
Just to know it all meant something
Just to prove to me
That everything was real
I never asked for anything but
Honesty from you

These days fade back into night
In the darkness, I still remember all those dreams
I’ve got no reason at all to still feel sorrow
But I want to, can’t you see?

If just to know
Just to know it all meant something
Just to prove to me
That everything was real
I never asked for anything but
Honesty from you

Happy Medium

Posted August 12, 2003 2:42pm ET

I’m still allowed to think you’re beautiful
I’m still allowed to blame you
I’m still allowed to wonder why you hurt me
I’m still allowed to hate you
I can’t tell you that I’m sorry

You’re never gonna have the chance again
My jaded friend
So a happy medium is just alright with me

I’m still the same angry man you knew
I’m still allowed to show it
I’m still allowed to wonder what you’re up to
I’m still allowed to throw s###
I can’t tell you that I’m sorry

You’re never gonna have the chance again
My jaded friend
So a happy medium is just alright with me

I’m still allowed to tell you ‘never’
I’m still allowed to cry
At least I truthfully say I was honest
And I never told you a lie
I can’t tell you that I’m sorry

You’re never gonna have the chance again
My jaded friend
So a happy medium is just alright with me

I’m still allowed to think you’re beautiful
I’m still tryin’ to figure why
But I’m still gonna tell you ‘never’
You know I’d never tell a lie

I can’t tell you that I’m sorry

Ancient Lies

Posted March 12, 2003 2:12pm ET

It gets all screwy in my head
Thinkin’ about the tears I’d spent
Good and bad memories slur together
Mr. Nice Guy, harmless nice guy
Driven to the point of no return

But I don’t know if you really mean
A single word that dribbles from your lips
I can’t tell the truth from between
Your ancient lies.

I Thought You’d Be Here

Posted August 5, 2001 2:39pm ET

I thought you’d be here
I was ready to look you in the eye
And walk away
I thought you’d be here
I agonized for days what I’d
Say to you
I thought you’d be here
And if you’d come I thought
I’d finally let you go…

I don’t know why you’re angry
That seems more a place for me
I don’t know why you hurt me like you did
I don’t know why you’re crying
Doesn’t make much sense to me
But in the end the stars still shine
And I’m still around all the time
And it all just seems a bit colder
Every day

I thought you’d be here
I was ready to look you in the eye
And stand my ground
I thought you’d be here
I knew exactly how you’d
Make me feel
I thought you’d be here
And if you’d come I thought
I’d finally let you go…

I don’t know why you’re hurting
That seems more a place for me
I can’t tell why you used me like you did
I don’t know what you’re trying
Doesn’t make much sense to me
But in the end the sun will rise
And everything you said’s still lies
And I grow a little bit colder
Every day

I don’t know why you’re angry
That seems just the place for me
I don’t know what you play me like you do
So why the hell are you crying?!
It don’t make much sense to me
But in the end the rain still falls
I sit within the same old walls
And it all gets so much colder
Every day

I thought you’d be here
I was ready to look you in the eye
And let you go…

Every Day

Posted August 5, 2001 2:38pm ET

Each and every day
I move further away
Smaller and smaller
Settling down into
The horizon
Each and every day

So who can say
What choices were right
And where it went wrong?
Anyway
So who can say?

Each and every day
I move further away
Smaller and smaller
Settling down into
The horizon
Each and every day

So, anyway
What’s the weather there?
I like the way the rain falls
Every day
So, anyway

Each and every day
I say what I say
Weaker and weaker
Settling down into
The pit you
Dug for you and me

Each and every day
Another smile, another way
To use me and leave me to die
And you think you’re special
Because you played me just like
All the others
You don’t deserve a single note
Of this song

Hate Me

Posted August 5, 2001 2:38pm ET

You know I couldn’t bear
To see you here this way
I’m sorry, I guess that’s all
That I can say
And you can blame me all you like
I know I deserve it
I know I couldn’t bear
To see you go

So hurt me all you’d like to hurt
You know your rights from wrong
Think I’ve learned to hate you
‘Cause I write a bitter song
You think I’ve never known you
But I’ve known you all along

You knew I couldn’t bear
To stand here in this way
I’m sorry, I guess that’s all
That I can say
And if you hurt the way I’d like
I know you deserve it
I knew I couldn’t bear
To see you go

So hurt me all you’d like to hurt
You know your rights from wrong
Think I’ve learned to hate you
‘Cause I write a bitter song
You think I’ve never known you
But I’ve known you all along

Lemonade at Amelon

Posted August 5, 2001 2:37pm ET

It seems I’ve been here time and time again
Searching for something to help a little while
Sometimes it might be easier to just disappear
But that’s not my style
I’m not sorry
I never did a thing to you
And I still sometimes feel
Like wanting you back

So it goes
So it is
So it will be
I’ve missed the sounds of the ringing phone
So it goes
So it is
So it will be
I’ll make the calls until I’m all alone

It seems I’m always driving to another heartbreak
Always driving miles upon miles upon miles
Sometimes it might be easier to just cut and run
But that’s not my style
I’m not sorry
I got nuthin’ to be sorry for
Wasn’t it gonna be
The last of you and me?

So it goes
So it is
So it will be
You’re all the joy and love I’ve ever known
So it goes
So it is
So it will be
It’s certainly not my first time being alone

And you never looked quite so lovely
You never looked quite so lovely
You never looked quite so lovely
As you look
Tonight…

Sheena’s Song

Posted August 5, 2001 2:36pm ET

You’re thinking about it
It’s haunting you
Crawling around inside
Like something from
A cheesy movie
You’re thinking about it
You can’t stop

You’re thinking about it
You’re wondering
How you’re gonna set straight
The end you made
With the one you promised
You’re thinking about it
You can’t stop

You’re thinking about it
Every time you hear my voice
You’re thinking about it
Every time you close your eyes
You’re thinking about it
Every breath you breathe
Every word you speak
Every f###ing second
You’d better be thinking
You’d better be thinking about it
You’re thinking about it
I won’t let you stop

You’re thinking about it
It’s haunting you
Crawling around inside
Like something from
Your back-burner trashpile
You’re thinking about it
You can’t stop
Any more than any of the ones you used
Could ever stop thinking of you

Madison Heights (Sing Your Lonely Song)

Posted May 19, 2001 2:13pm ET

You stop, and then you go again
Thirty-five down to zero and back
You trust, but then you know again
One hundred lonely men put on the rack

So sing your lonely song
Sing your lonely song
You wrote it all yourself
So sing it proud

They try, and then they try again
You’ll know just when you’ve let them down
You’ll know and then you’ll know again
It’s your song girl; play it loud

So sing your lonely song
Sing your lonely song
You wrote it all yourself
So sing it proud

So sing your lonely song
Sing your lonely song
You wrote it all yourself
So sing it proud

Smile

Posted May 8, 2001 2:41pm ET

I will not let you win this fight
Though you’ve been fighting for a while
I will not let you break my good day
I will not let you turn my smile

Settled Memories

Posted May 8, 2001 2:35pm ET

I know you’ll move on
Hell, you were gone before I left you
And I wouldn’t have left you anyway
If you gave me a reason to stay
You’ll get past this
And someday I know you’ll be happy
And I’ll see you from a distance
With a tear in my eye
Because you were all I ever wanted
And if you hadn’t pushed me away
If you hadn’t pushed me away…

But that ain’t gonna happen
Sorry girl, you had your chance
You blew it
It’s nobody’s fault but your own
And I’ve got my picture of us
And you’ve got those damned CD’s
And someplace there’s still one or two
Good memories
Settled in a dusty box
Among the maggots and the bile
The phone cards and the miles
Salty tears and misleading smiles

I know you’ll move on
Hell, I don’t think you were ever here
You know I didn’t leave you, anyway
You pushed me right out the door
You’ll get past this
And someday I’ll try to be happy
And when you see me from a distance
In your dreams at night
Would you care to make me wanted?
Would I give you the chance, anyway?

Ha!

No, that ain’t gonna happen
You know you had your chance
You blew it
It’s nobody’s fault but your own
And I’ve got my picture of us
And you’ve got those damned CD’s
And someplace there’s still one or two
Good memories
Settled in a dusty box
Among the maggots and the bile
The phone cards and the miles
Salty tears and misleading smiles

Twenty Years On

Posted May 8, 2001 2:34pm ET

I can only hope in twenty years we laugh together
About past years and fears and falling tears
Because today it’s more than hard to say goodbye
Somehow I know it’s only a matter of time now
Until we try and cry and trust our lies
And today it’s more than hard to say goodbye

So our hair will grow grey
Our bodies grow weak
Like the will we’ve harbored within
Through bloodshot eyes and
Arthritic knees I can only pray
You’ll run back to me

I can only hope that …
Because today it’s more than hard to say goodbye
Somehow I know that …
And today it’s more than hard to say goodbye

So our hair grows more grey
It gets harder to speak
And the silence just fills us again
Through bloodshot eyes and
Arthritic knees I can only pray
You’ll run back to me

And when I’m lying cold…and still…in the ground
Then will you come around
Like I try to do every-other-week?
Will you leave a red rose by the grave?
Will you re-read the letters you saved?
Will you laugh when you remember
The silly jokes I made?
Or cry when you remember
The silly game you played?
Will you even remember?
Could we ever forget?
You know I never got to say I’m sorry
But then again…

Neither did you

Two Weeks On (New Carrollton)

Posted May 8, 2001 2:33pm ET

Two weeks on
Gazing out on the beauty
Of the Blue Ridge at night
And the dawn
Creeps up behind the
Distant light of Lynchburg
The lightning flashes of what we were
Flicker on the hazy horizon
And like their torrents, my tears
Roll down this cold, cold rock

Two weeks on
Staring deep unto the dark
Of the mountains I’ve climbed
And if quiet
You may hear the sound
Of this world collapsing
The final pangs of what we had
Flash briefly in our silence
And like my hopes, my dreams
Quickly fade into the black

Two weeks on
The hope is almost gone
I hear your voice
I see your smile
And I just feel so alone

Ring

Posted May 8, 2001 2:31pm ET

I had an American dream
I had love, I had truth, I had faith
I had a road leading to glory
I had it all, I had it all

I had an American dream
With honor, justice, and right
I had a signposted path to peace
And you took that away from me
You took that away

You bled this cold heart dry
And all I can do is ask why
You took a trust so pure
Turned it to lies, all lies
There’s nothing left for me
And I know someday you’ll see
You pressed a beautiful thing
Until it died…it died

I had an American dream
Of you and me …
You had a road leading to glory
You had it all! (You took that away from me!)
You had it all! (You took that away!)

You bled this cold heart dry
And all I can do is ask why
You took a trust so pure
Turned it to lies, all lies
There’s nothing left for me
And I know someday you’ll see
You pressed a beautiful thing
Until it died…it died

You bled this cold heart dry
And all I can do is ask why
I bought a ring for your left hand
I just hope you understand

Five ‘Til Twelve

Posted May 8, 2001 2:30pm ET

Pulling into her driveway
The gravel crackles under the tires
And the silence has nearly darkened
The light from the dashboard
I stare straight ahead
She doesn’t move
She doesn’t speak
But from the corner of my eye
I see her staring back at me
And as the dashlights fade to black
Phil Collins appears with a match
(You can’t hurry love…)
And we laugh
Because his light shining from the radio
Has brightened even the day I had today

It was a long ride home
But even through the silence
I knew I wasn’t alone

Foggy Bottom

Posted May 8, 2001 2:30pm ET

It’s a little dreary outside
And we’ve really got to talk
Because I’m not so sure about
The party tonight
I knew seeing you with him
Would drive me mad
But I had to humor you this time
And even when you look to me
To look at you and tell you
How much I’m falling apart
On the inside

You don’t
Need to know
It will only rush things
Best moved slow
We’d best move slow
You’ve got to know
I know you’ve got to know

And it’s a little dreary outside
We have really got to talk

Go

Posted May 8, 2001 2:28pm ET

It all seems so much more
Obscure than I remembered
The streetlight might now seem
A slight more vague
I can’t help it
It’s the first time it’s been harder
To hold on than to let you
Go

It’s poetic justice
The first time I need to tough it out
Being the first time I’m almost
Too weak to see it through
And it’s funny
In that twisted way I love so much
How my wall it’s taken years to build
Now threatens to tear us down

I can’t make it easier
On you or me or what’s left
Of in-between
I can’t fix things
I’d never have the heart
To break
So forgive me, I’m a cynic
And tell me, for a minute
Why I can’t let me let you
Go

And it all seems so much more
Obscure than I remembered
So I still sit under the
Streetlight in the dark
I can’t help it
It’s never been so hard to choose
To hold on or to let you
Go

It’s no kind of justice
Making me sit here and tough it out
When we both know damn-well I’m
Too weak to see it through
But it’s funny
In that twisted way I love so much
How blurry Waterlick Road looks through
These cold and worn-out eyes

I can’t make it easier
On you or me or what’s left
Of in-between
I can’t mend hearts
I’d never dare to break
So forgive me, I’m a cynic
And tell me, for a minute
Why I’d never-ever let you
Go
Go
Go!
Go!
Go.

Sorry?

Posted May 8, 2001 2:28pm ET

It seems like months ago
We left the party
And without a word spoken
We’re still tryin’ to make
Our way home
The Sunburst passed us long ago
But where else could we go?
I’m tryin’ to build the strength
To say I’m sorry
But so are you
And in moments like these
It creeps into my mind
That doubt that maybe I’m
Just wasting my time

Little Cloud

Posted May 8, 2001 2:27pm ET

Heart races
I’m only going
Eighty-five
Heat traces
The track down
Leesville Road
I’m losing
What’s left of
Self-control
The last little sliver
Of hope
The last little cloud
Of smoke

Heart races
I’m only going
Nowhere fast
I’m sorry
I can’t just
Let her go
In silence
I hafta get
Her home
She’s my little sliver
Of hope
My last little cloud
Of smoke
To feed the flame

Me Either

Posted May 8, 2001 2:27pm ET

She doesn’t know what to say
And I’m just so speechless
Yeah, I’m just so helpless
We both know it’s been a long day
What else is there left to do?
And I’m just so tired now
Yeah, I’m just so lost now
We both know I hafta blame you

The radiator’s leaking and it’s getting
Hot in here
It’s a sorry day in the saga of
Me and you
The feelings are etched well enough
Into my face
That I don’t really need words
Neither of us needs the words
When we don’t know what to say

I just don’t know what to say
When I’m verging on tears
It’s been a long, long year
We both know it’s been a damn long day
What else is there left to be
When I know I’m sorry
And you know you’re sorry
But neither has the nerve to speak

The radiator’s leaking and it’s getting
Hot in here
It’s a sorry day in the saga of
Me and you
The feelings are etched well enough
Into my face
That I don’t really need words
Neither of us needs the words
When we don’t know what to say

She turns to me and says
“I don’t know what to say”
And all I can muster in return
Is a quiet
Gravelly
“Me either”

Second Choice

Posted May 8, 2001 2:27pm ET

Even if you come back
I’ll always be your second
Choice
I know you’re only kidding
The two of us to believe
And with your tongue down his throat
Are you thinking of me?

I could never pretend
I believe you’re still going
Home
With a path as twisted
As you and me
And when he runs his hand down your spine
Are you thinking of me?
Are you?!
Are you sorry?!

It’s a tired old song
Like the tires at Goodman’s Crossing
And with his heart in one hand
And mine in the other
Why-ever would you waste the time
On your second choice?

Slightly Bitter

Posted May 8, 2001 2:26pm ET

The echoes of the evening
Are still ringing in every last inch
Of every ounce of strength
I use to hold this pose
To stare transfixed by the highway
I know what you’re looking at
And I know exactly what you’re thinking
Just like always

I’m sorry
I’m not so strong as I used to be
I’m sorry
I just don’t have the nerve to cry
I’m sorry
I’m so sorry

Route 29 runs like a sad song
It’s certainly not the first song
That boils up from the inside like a pain
It’s not the sound of so long
Nor the fear of rights gone so wrong
That proves we still may never feel the same
Tomorrow’s just as sad as it’s ever been
So even still, I’d do it all again

The taste is slightly bitter
But I’ll still sing every last note
Of every last song
I wrote to make you smile
But I stare transfixed by the highway
I just can’t bring myself to speak
But you know what I’m thinking
Just like always

I’m scared now
I’m not so strong as I’d like to be
I’m scared now
I just don’t have the nerve to try
I’m scared now
I’m so scared now

Route 29 runs like a sad song
It wouldn’t be the first song
That drives up like a spike out from this road
It’s not the sound of so long
Nor the fear of rights gone so wrong
That makes it oh-so-clear we’ll never know
Tomorrow’s just the same it’s always been
But even still, I’d do it all again

Where Do I Go From Here?

Posted May 8, 2001 2:25pm ET

She walks into the room
Her new guy hanging onto
Her every move, every word
She smiles, just not at me
So I sit at the bar, just as
Far away as I can get
She walks into the room
And I can’t leave
I’m her ride home

Stranded here in hell
Where do I go?
Where do I go from here?
How do I stand here
Watching you with him?
How do I
How do I go on
Like this?

She walks into the room
And I’m more in love than
I ever knew I could be
She smiles it away to her
New guy as I head out the door
As far away as I can get
She walks into the room
But I can’t leave
I’m her ride home

Stranded here in hell
Where do I go?
Where do I go from here?
How do I stand here
Watching you with him?
How do I
How do I go on??!!
Stranded here in hell
Where do I go?
Where do I go from here?
How do I stand here
Knowing you’re with him?
How do I
How do I go on
Like this?

Disappear

Posted May 8, 2001 2:24pm ET

I just want to disappear
Forget this party and go
Far away from here
So far away
So far away
And I can’t express
The sorrow you give me

I can’t sit and watch you
Sitting there and doing
Everything I want to do
Can’t disappear
Can’t disappear
And I can’t express
The pain I feel right now

I can’t take this
Won’t you make me
Disappear
Disappear
(Won’t you)
Disappear
Disappear
Won’t you
Please
(Let me)
Disappear

Rosslyn Station

Posted May 8, 2001 2:23pm ET

It’s a little dreary outside
And we’ve really got to talk
Because I’m not so sure about
The party tonight
I know seeing you with him
Will drive me mad
Maybe you could find another ride
But even when you call I can’t
Bring myself to tell you
How much I’m falling apart
On the inside

You don’t
Need to know
It will only rush things
Best moved slow
We’d best move slow
Baby, I know
Why you’re moving so slow

And it’s a little dreary outside today
We have really got to talk
~
But even when you call I can’t
Bring myself to tell you
How much I know this’ll hurt
On the inside…because

You don’t
Need to know
It’ll only rush things
Best moved slow
We’d best move slow
I understand
Why you’re driving me mad
Baby, I know
Why you’re moving so slow

Stranger Than Fiction

Posted May 5, 2001 2:32pm ET

We walked along, our heads were held up high
Reached out our hands and we could touch the sky
One day we could try to speak, and lose the words
But it’s the sweetest silence I’ve ever heard

And so we could try to share our seperate songs
We could count rights we hid beside the wrongs
And in the end it’s only paragraphs and words
But they’re the sweetest words I’ve ever heard

Somewhere inside all laughter
All the nows and everafters
There’s a line we’ll hold on to
And a reason that we’ll want to
Through cracks in my voice
You give me no choice
I’m tryin’ to hang on for now
Babe, you gotta tell me how

Someday we’ll rebuild all these bridges burned
Recount the lines we threw and lessons learned
You’ll thank me for the laughs and wasted days
I’ll wonder why I tried, and why I stayed

Somewhere inside all laughter
All the nows and everafters
There’s a line we’ll hold on to
And a reason that we’ll want to
Through cracks in my voice
You give me no choice
I’m tryin’ to hang on for now
Babe, you gotta tell me how

I could pretend I care, and want to know
What’s really going on and why you had to go
You’ll come runnin’ back someday, I know you will
Fiction is strange, but truth is stranger still

Somewhere inside all laughter
All the nows and everafters
There’s a line we’ll hold on to
And a reason that we’ll want to
Through cracks in my voice
You give me no choice
I’m tryin’ to hang on for now
Babe, you gotta tell me how

Untitled #3 (Under the Streetlight)

Posted April 20, 2001 2:22pm ET

As I walk under the streetlight
It goes dark
And so I walk in darkness
When every time I’ve got to try
Will you just tell me more lies?

So maybe I walked too fast
Maybe I walked too slow
But I’ve been wrong all along
Maybe, I just don’t know
You can’t tell me either way
So I’ll be waiting
Yeah, I’ll be waiting

As I walk under the streetlight
It goes dark
And so I walk in darkness
You can’t deny every kiss
And I know it can’t end like this

I’d Leave You Alone

Posted April 20, 2001 2:21pm ET

I would say it’s like you’ve
Stabbed me in the heart again
But there ain’t any left
I don’t have anything left but you
And you’re slipping away
Hell, you’re never gone
You were never here
YOU WERE NEVER HERE

I’d throw you away, but I can’t
I’d leave you alone, but I won’t
I need you like I’ve never needed before

I would say it’s like I feel the pain
But after all this, I don’t think
I can feel anymore.

Untitled #4 (Flashbulb)

Posted April 20, 2001 2:20pm ET

I walked around this desert place
Tired of running the Human Race
After all of the pain
It’ll still be just the same

So tear the songs from the notebook
Try to mend this broken heart
As long as I’ve tried and failed
Have I ever played the right part?

I walked around this desert place
Saw the coldness in your face
And after all of the tears
I still hold the same old fears

And if the signs weren’t clear
Then fine, ignore them like you do
Make me question everything
I ever thought I knew

I opened the door to my heart
And you walked away
Well the door’s still open and it’s drafty
And all I have left is the cold
I caught from you

No photographs, just memories
No tomorrows, just yesterday
And you laugh as the flashbulb
Captures the pain and the anger
Bottles it up for you to drink
Later on
Later on
And you have that, yeah, you have that
You came out clean with something left over
But all I have left is the cold
The only thing left is this cold
The cold I caught
From you

Nowhere, Nothing

Posted April 20, 2001 2:20pm ET

Hate is a very strong word
I try it on you
And every angry song
I play for you
Every tear line down my face
Every hole or empty space
And every pain I trace it back
To you

And everywhere I look I can’t escape you
Through the tears I can’t even see into your eyes
Everything I’ve ever known, every loudly ringing phone
Nothing that you do can strike me true

Forever is a very long time
To hurt for you
I’ve got to be f###ing crazy
‘Cuz I’m still crazy for you
…!
…!
Yeah every pain I trace it back
To you

And everywhere I look I can’t escape you
Through the tears I can’t even see into your eyes
Everything I’ve ever known, every loudly ringing phone
Nothing that you do can strike me true
None of it was ever true
None of it was ever true
None of it was ever true
Except the way I felt for you

Untitled #1

Posted April 20, 2001 2:19pm ET

When I was gone, did you miss me
When I was here, did you care?
When you said you loved me, were you lying?
Or when I ran my fingers through your hair?
Every word must have meant nothing
Every kiss, I guess not much more
I trusted you with my everything
And you’ve left me empty to the core

So you tell me that you are sorry?
I couldn’t tell you if that’s quite enough
As much as I’m trying to hate you
All I’ve got for you here is what’s left
Of my love

And after every broken promise
The one that hurts me so strong
The fact that at every crossroads
You promised you’d never lead me on

My Hand in Yours

Posted April 20, 2001 2:19pm ET

If I don’t know how to be
The superman you wish I was
Would you stay or would you leave me
Seems I just can’t do enough
I’m dealing with your cruel intentioned
Hope to know just where I stand

I feel a tear roll down my face
As the dream slips further away
It’s not about the glory, baby
I’ve never been quite so cheap
In one ear and out the other
Everything we’ve been to each other
In one ear and out the other

You taste sweeter each new lie
So pull me deeper into your trap
Pretend that you don’t even know me
I’ve never known you at all
I’m dealing with your cruel intentioned
Need to feel my hand in yours

I feel a tear roll down my face
As the dream slips further away
It’s not about the glory, baby
I’ve never been quite so cheap
In one ear and out the other
Everything we’ve been to each other
In one ear and out the other

Seeing You Cry

Posted April 20, 2001 2:18pm ET

I hate to see you cry
It tears me up inside
I just want to take your
Tears away
I can’t help thinking
I bear much of the blame
The price I pay don’t change
Either way

Every time your heart aches
Mine does too
And everything I want
I find in you

So don’t be scared
You haven’t done anything wrong
Don’t be scared
It’s what we’ve wanted all along
And I hope you know
Through the highs, through the lows
I’ll be here for you
Always
Always

I know you’re hurting
I can feel it in your voice
I wish I could take your
Hurt away
I know you’re thinking
You always seemed to be
Everything in the world
To me

Every time your heart aches
Mine does too
But everything I need
I find in you

So don’t be scared
You haven’t done anything wrong
Don’t be scared
Of what we’ve wanted all along
And I hope you know
Through the highs, through the lows
I’ll be here for you
Always
Always

I’ll Love You

Posted April 20, 2001 2:17pm ET

I’ve loved you
Longer than a lifetime
I’ve loved you
Like you could never know
I’ve loved you
And I’ll love you forever
I’ve loved you
And I’ll ask you not to go

I’ve loved you
Standing here in silence
I’ve loved you
Louder than the thunderous storm
I’ve loved you
That’s the way it could be
I’ve loved you
Won’t you keep me warm?

I’ll love you
Longer than a lifetime
I’ll love you
Like you will never know
I’ll love you
From now until forever
I’ll love you
So baby, please don’t go

I Hear Your Voice, I See Your Smile

Posted April 20, 2001 2:16pm ET

Sometimes I wonder if
I’m wasting my time
I know you’re hurting
Because I am too
But every time I start
To doubt the way I’m feelin’
I hear your voice
I see your smile
And it always brings me home

‘Cause baby you’re my every thought
My every prayer and song
Every word of every line
Every right and every wrong
‘Cause baby you’re my every dream
My every wish come true
And I could only feel this way
For you

I can pretend I know
What I should do
But the fact is that I’m
Lost in your love
And every time I feel
I’m losing everything
I hear your voice
I see your smile
And it always brings me home

‘Cause baby you’re my every thought
My every prayer and song
Every word of every line
Every right and every wrong
‘Cause baby you’re my every dream
My every wish come true
And I could only feel this way
For you

Yeah, baby you’re my every dream
My every wish come true
And I could only feel
This way
For you

And somehow it’s still true

If He Loves You

Posted April 20, 2001 2:16pm ET

The words go slipping from my lips
Like a long forgotten kiss
I pretend that I’m not scared
No, not at all ~
But my heart beats faster
And now I long for your assuring words
That I’ve waited oh so long
For you to say

And if he loves you
If he cares
If he makes you feel special
Then go with him
But if he can’t
You know I will
Yeah, you know I will

He could never love you quite
The way I do

Scared Half to Death

Posted April 20, 2001 2:15pm ET

I’m scared half to death right now
Sitting sideways in the bed
And the pictures and the words
Slowly work straight through my head
Have I missed my chance to tell you
All the things I’ve never said?

And it’s snowing
Things are always
Getting deeper
Around here
And I’m screaming
And I’m hoping
That just maybe
You will hear
My voice, when I tell you
That I love you

I’m scared half to death right now
Driving down route 29
Rehearsing what I’m going to say
And I’ve got it right this time
Been to the edge of heaven
And the dream can’t just be mine

And it’s snowing
Things are always
Getting deeper
Around here
And I’m screaming
And I’m hoping
That just maybe
You will hear
My voice, when I tell you
That I love you

As well as I’ve been holding together
I know I’m just falling apart

And it’s snowing
Things have always
Been so deep
Around here
And I’m screaming
And I’m hoping
That just maybe
You will hear
My voice, when I tell you
That I love you

Everywhere, Everything

Posted April 20, 2001 2:15pm ET

Love is a very strong word
I use it on you
Life is a very long game
I play it for you
Every second that I dream
Every moment I’m awake
The only thing that’s on my mind
Is you

And everywhere I look I see you smiling
I see your deep brown eyes glowing back at me
Every time I see a rose, and all the waves that come and go
Everything I know, it’s all for you

Forever is a very long time
I’d spend it with you
Sometimes I don’t think I’m sane
But I’m crazy for you
Every time that I’m alone
Every voice that’s on the phone
Every time, you’re on my mind
It’s all for you

‘Cause everywhere I look I see you smiling
I see your deep brown eyes glowing back at me
Every time I see a rose, and all the waves that come and go
Everything I know, it’s all for you

Power Over Me

Posted April 20, 2001 2:14pm ET

Girl I’m so stuck on you
This energy inside me
You make me weak
You turn me into something
I don’t know
There’s this feeling in my heart
I can’t tell what you’re thinking
And I don’t know where to start

So take this lonely heart
Teach me to love again, these feelings I impart
I can’t go on like this
Won’t you set me free
Girl you have the power over me

I can’t get over you
Can’t explain what’s inside me
Too often I have found
Love to be more pain than gain
I wish I knew just what to say
You know I loved you yesterday
I love you more today

So take this lonely heart
Teach me to love again, these feelings I impart
I can’t go on like this
I wish you’d set me free
Girl you have the power over me

Don’t try to hide me in your sorrow
I need you now, I know you need me too
I couldn’t tell you why
I have no reasons why
But you’re the one for me, you know
Yeah you know you know you know

So take this lonely heart
Teach me to love again, these feelings I impart
I can’t go on like this
Won’t you set me free
You know you have this power over me

Untitled #2

Posted April 20, 2001 2:14pm ET

You’d think by now I’d know
Never to believe
And save myself the heartache later on
Had it been anybody else they would
Have never got the chance
I’m a cynical fool, I don’t expect much
But I expected more from you

But it turned out the same all over again
Maybe I’ll learn this time
You turned out like all the rest
Maybe my everything wasn’t enough
It’s never really been
But all I can say is I’ll never say
“I love you” quite the same
As I said it to you.

Happy Valentine’s Day

Posted February 14, 2001 2:17pm ET

“Happy Valentine’s Day”
I say with a smile
As the darkness grows a little deeper
“Happy Valentine’s Day”
I still mean that from the heart
“Happy Valentine’s Day”
I say with a smile
As the sorrow gets a little stronger

And I miss you, in a strange way
Because right now you’re not even gone
And I miss you, in a new way
It seems I’ve just missed you all along
And I miss you, it’s a long day
To spend without your smile
And I miss you, in a strange way
Because right now you’re not even gone

“Happy Valentine’s Day”
I say with a smile
As the doubt creeps in a little louder
“Happy Valentine’s Day”
From what’s left of my cold heart
“Happy Valentine’s Day”
I say with a smile
And the tears welling up in my eyes

And I miss you, in a strange way
Because right now you’re not even gone
And I miss you, in a new way
It seems I’ve just missed you all along
And I miss you, it’s a long day
To spend without your smile
And I miss you, in a strange way
Because right now you’re not even gone

“Happy Valentine’s Day”
I say as the tears
Streak down my face

Far Too Young

Posted January 19, 2001 2:12pm ET

They say
She’s way too young
She’s not the one for you
But how do they know?
And what can we do?
Take my hand, we’ll run away

Baby, you’re far too young
Baby, yes, way too young
You know
Baby…

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Scott Bradford has been building web sites and using them to say what he thinks since 1995, which tended to get him in trouble with power-tripping assistant principals at the time. He holds a bachelor’s degree in Public Administration from George Mason University, but has spent most of his career (so far) working on public- and private-sector web sites. He is not a member of any political party, and brands himself an ‘independent constitutional conservative.’ In addition to holding down a day job and blogging about challenging subjects like politics, religion, and technology, Scott is also a devout Catholic, gun-owner, bike rider, and music lover with a wife and two cats.

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